Rob Cavallo |
The Paramour - not a house of love |
Revenge Mikey |
By the time the band started work at The Paramour, Mikey was at an emotional low. He started to feel as though he only had two options – to leave the band or to kill himself. He tried drinking and taking pills, but this did not help. His condition was only worsened by the fact that The Paramour had no phone reception, no TV, and no heating. Also, Mikey had ended up sleeping in a creepy room with only one blue light. After suffering through a month of nervous breakdowns and hyperventilating attacks, Mikey left the mansion to stay with Stacey Fass, the band’s attorney. He started getting therapy, and was diagnosed as having a condition “very close to bipolar”. When he wasn’t seeing a therapist, he returned to The Paramour to help the rest of the band write. However, he did not stay the night again.
After Mikey left, the rest of My Chemical Romance became creatively paralysed. Gerard went through a “pre-mid-life crisis” in which he searched for meaning in what he was doing. He stopped showering and changing his clothes, and started having trouble sleeping. He started having waking dreams and night terrors not being able to breathe and things burning. He started keeping notes of these nightmares. One of things he wrote was “We are all just a black parade”, which helped the band shape the direction of the record. Gerard also described his nightmares into a portable tape recorder, and soundbites from these were later used on Sleep.
To help deal with all of these emotional issues, the band decided to designate one room in The Paramour to go and thrash out their feelings and be brutally honest with each other. This place became known as The Heavy Room. They drained their souls in this room, as they kept finding things they didn’t like about themselves. However, they knew that they had to push themselves to the edge to make a really great record, and ultimately the time spent talking over their feelings in this room strengthened the bonds between them. They realised that they had to put aside their personal problems to help each other, and so emerged closer than ever before.
However, My Chemical Romance was still in creative stasis. A breakthrough finally came when Gerard heard Ray playing songs off Ozzy Osbourne’s Bark At The Moon. “It upset the shit out of me. He wants to play our songs, but he’s playing Ozzy. He was playing the songs a lot faster. They sounded angrier and I knew it was coming solely out of frustration”. Gerard went over to him, and the pair started working on a song scrap entitled “The Saddest Music in the World”. Gerard poured all of his anxieties about Mikey and recording into it, and the song became Famous Last Words. The next day, when Mikey came in they played him the song, and he loved it. This revitalized everyone’s spirits, and the band decided to leave The Paramour a few weeks earlier than they had previously planned. They moved into the Oakwood apartments located close to the studio, and kept working.
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